First, I want to thank you all for your encouragement and support. I really appreciate it. I have to admit, it was a little overwhelming to realize how many people are reading about me. I had a couple of days where I panicked, just thinking about how many people will see me if I fail now. I know that's not how I should think of it, it's just the way my brain seems to work. The whole "that's the way my brain seems to work" thing is something I really need to work on. For instance, Lesley said something in an email to me about me being active. That's a totally new concept for me, me as an active person. Even several years ago, when I would exercise several days a week, I never considered myself active. I guess I just thought of myself as a sedentary person who happened to exercise. Thinking about it now, that sounds kind of nuts, but it's just that the concept of active was never one that I thought applied to me, and I still have a little trouble with it.Now get out there folks and get moving!!!
Anyway. I've had some good days in this last month. I've gotten to where I can walk a mile in 25 minutes, down from the 30 minutes it took just a month ago. I've continued to lose weight, and am down to 291.7 lbs now. I've worn some clothes from the back of my closet that I haven't been able to wear in over a year. And in general, I feel better, physically and emotionally, than I have in a long time.
It hasn't all been smooth sailing, though. I had a week where I just didn't want to do anything, I just wanted to stay in bed and sleep all the time. I'm still not sure what that was about, if it was physical exhaustion from the combination of exercising and a low calorie diet, or if it was a bit of depression, or what. My best guess is, maybe a little of both. I am feeling better now, and enjoying a cut-back week with lighter workouts, so hopefully next week I'll be well-rested and able to just jump back into the longer, more difficult workouts with no problems.
I do still struggle every day (well, the five days a week I exercise) with having to force myself to exercise. Once I get started, I'm usually okay, but I will do anything to put off getting started. I don't know why, I know I feel better if I just go ahead and get it done and over with for the day rather than continuing to have it hanging over my head as something I'm going to have to do at some point, but still, I put it off. I really hope that part gets easier at some point.
Overall, I guess I'd say I'm doing okay, I just have to keep reminding myself why I'm doing this, so that I have a long and healthy life to look forward to, and that even after I lose the weight, I'm going to have to keep exercising, so I might as well just get used to it now.
(Last day to enter my Family Fan Club giveaway!!!)